Identity, Beauty, and Fear…oh my!

wires from warehouse

wires from warehouse

Trying to bring together identity, hidden beauty, and fear into one tangible product seemed difficult at first, but the more I thought about the problem, the more I was able to understand that they are all connected.  Identity plays a role in what you see as beauty and how you experience fear.  Fear can help shape one’s identity and push them towards what they find as beauty.  And, beauty is determined by someone’s identity and is often the opposite of their fears.

My original concept for hidden beauty was something that I experience at work every day, but don’t realize.  This is the structure and connections that are hidden from view, but provide power or electricity or water to different places in our building.  For this, I took some images of the things that hide above the drop ceiling or in our warehouse.


tomatoes on a shelf

For identity, I happened across this scene while grocery shopping.  (I promise I didn’t set this up.)  It shows a tomato on the shelf where the canned tomatoes go.

I think this is a perfect example of how you can be the same basic thing as someone else, take brothers or classmates, but in reality be vastly different.  In this case, the tomatoes in the cans were both “born” with a destiny to become a canned tomato, but also had to go through the process of getting canned to get there.  As for the fresh tomato, it had a different journey and yet still arrived on the same shelf.


fog on cornfield

Finally, the fear part was something I was struggling with in finding something to show.  But then, Monday morning happend.  I was driving to work and when I got close to my office, the fog started getting thick.  So thick, that I had to slow my car down to ensure I would not run into someone in front of me.  The simple fact that I couldn’t not see very far in front of me, caused me to react to the fear of the unknown.  When I arrived at work, I walked to the field next to the office and snapped this image.  I see this view out my window every day, but with the fog so thick this day, I truly didn’t know what was hiding behind the fog.  It could have been anything.


How do I know…

It is interesting to think about how we experience the world around us and how we “know” what is going on around us.  When, in fact, we are simply responding to stimuli that is transmitted to our brain.  I believe that we are actually experiencing these things around us, but know one will can be sure that this is actually happening.

I did like how we talked about how giving a name to something helps take much of the fear out of it, because as soon as something is named, it becomes something that is known.  And, the unknown is what drives much of human fear.


I think fear is one of the more bizarre concepts for living things. It is something we all deal with in one way or another, and all in different ways. Just as my cat will hide under the bed at the first sound of thunder, I will run from certain types of interactions or projects.
Since we all have to find ways to deal with this fear, as it is inevitable that we will come across something that we are afraid of.  If we can find a way to turn that fear into a game or a challenge, we may have a better experience.
My brother always says, “Do something everyday that scares you.”  This is because the more we are able to overcome our fears, the stronger we can be as a person.


Identity is an odd concept to cover, odd in the sense that it will usually bring up more questions than answers.  Here is my attempt at answering a few of the questions.

Who are you and why are you here?

Well, isn’t that the question for the ages, the question that humans have been asking themselves for thousands of years?  For me, I simply don’t know.  I believe that question is much larger than my mind can comprehend, and I am fine with that.  I think humans have created myths, religions, and science all to seek answers to these questions.  None of them have it all right.

As far as nature vs nurture, I believe you are a combination of both in your life.  Life experiences will always shape who you are as a person, but there are certainly physical abilities and characteristics that will contribute to how you react to things, or how people react to you.

As far as how identities change, that is also a tough question.  Since, as I stated before, that life experiences will shape who you are, I would have to say that an identity will change over time and through experiences.  But, there are certain core elements that seem to remain the same.  Things like a sense of humor, or a certain strand of deviousness, that seem to remain regardless experience.

One more thing on identity that adds more questions is a belief that “perception is reality” and someone’s is often who other people perceive them as, rather than who they believe their identity to be.  After all, we live in a planet full of humans and animals, all affected by each other.  Who am I but something others encounter and interact with?

As for me, I believe I would like to be someone who is passionate in my convictions, patient in my interactions, and strong in my actions.  Unfortunately, I know I fall short in all these areas.  But don’t we all?

June 10, 2013

Today, I will remember the Apple WWDC keynote address and how Apple has finally updated it’s mobile operating system to be relevant to current devices. Additionally, with it’s “Sneak Peak” of the new Mac Pro, it is obvious where the world of desktop computing is going. Smaller, more dense devices that still pack a powerful punch. Additionally, there is more of a push for external add-ons instead of internal card upgrades to systems.
That and I will remember stumbling across this link:


After taking time to really clear my head and get out of the work and school modes, I was able to look at my what if list again.  I felt that I was able to look at this list as a whole, more than I had before, and the overwhelming theme I felt from it was how I felt that beauty was in the mystery behind what we normally see.  I felt strongly that looking at things from the other side or peeling away the facade that we normally see can be amazing and is where true beauty lies.

I really found this assignment to be a good way to focus when coming back to the project at hand.  I did, though, have some issues with getting my head in the right frame of mind to begin with.  I kept trying to do some work, or other task to keep me busy.  But, after some time, I was able to relax and really enjoy my surroundings and help me think.

As far as the list, I think I would like to get images of the space between my ceiling and the roof of my office building.  I think this will give me ample material and it is definitely something that most people overlook, but it can be extremely beautiful.

What is Beauty…

For this author, beauty is everywhere. But the most beautiful things are those that lie beneath the surface.
For me,this is the beauty  of the code behind t structures behind dry wall. he the website, or the